These Times are Hard (( READ DESCRIPTION ))

Its constantly on my mind. 4 months already wasted. Gone. Never coming back. Don’t get me wrong, I have more opportunities than most, but it really stinks to have those amazing opportunities and not be able to take advantage of them. “oh these times are hard yeah they are making us crazy” I have wanted to give up so many times during this 4 months, I was so close to selling prize, they had a trailer lined up with a horse from Ocala for me to try, another Junior hunter. Things fell through. At first I viewed it as this is awful, how many times can you kick me while im down? But now I guess it has made me realize that things happen for a reason and what an amazing horse I was so close to giving up on. I swear these hard times have made me crazy. They made me consider quitting. QUITTING RIDING. I swear insanity right there. But it was os hard for me to go out to the barn & watch all of my peers go above and beyond me. I couldn’t help but feel that at some point it should be my turn to shine but it hasn’t. One lame horse after another, usually things like this don’t happen, but its happened to me, twice, in a row. Ugh I feel so selfish saying all of this but its truly how I feel. We’ve finally made it somewhere. We can walk, trot, and even canter half a lap! You can’t imagine the excitement I felt when I read the note on the board from the vet “prize- much better-start (medication)” I felt like running and screaming out of excitement. I am currently leasing another horse Jake …