possible past life dream? Please help me make some sense of it…?
Question by Sara: possible past life dream? Please help me make some sense of it…?
I’ve never had a dream like this… I woke up very affected, and have felt down about it all day. Does anyone know about past life dreams? Any closure or advise would be very appreciated! Thank you…
My name was Natasha. I was brunette, young, and very pretty. I wore a white, fancy big, puffy dress. Like something you’d see in a western movie. The location was somewhere western, very dry, very few plants outside, just dirt and cactus. I was in a house, with other young girls. They didn’t feel like family, I don’t think I had family. I have a feeling it was like a prostitute home, where men came and paid for the girls. There were men there, I think maybe a saloon on the bottom floor, with a bar and a piano. Upstairs there were small bedrooms, with high beds that had pretty blankets, flowered. I lived there, but I wasn’t a prostitute, I was a virgin. I was engaged to a man who was to be arriving the next day from a war, when we were to be married. My fiancée was a tall, handsome, dark brown haired man. I didn’t know him well, but I thought I loved him. This day, a group of older men came to the house. They had been somewhere for a long time, without women. Maybe war, or off on some cattle drive? I was upstairs and alone. An older man came upstairs. He was middle aged, balding, smelled bad, repulsive. He pushed me into a small room with a bathtub. He ripped my clothes off and pushed me into the dry bathtub. He raped me. I remember begging him to stop, that my wedding was tomorrow… I was crying hysterically. He kept saying he was sorry but that I didn’t understand, that he needed to. This was while it was happening. I don’t remember him hurting me, I just had a sickening feeling in my stomach, because I was a virgin and this could not happen. Not the day before my wedding. I remember I didn’t or could fight him off, almost because he was a customer? Or because I knew the woman in charge would beat me. And because I had a feeling this man didn’t know that I was NOT a prostitute unlike the other girls in the house. This part of the dream was very visual, I remember it clearly. Once again, repulsive. I was crying so hard that at one point he was looking away during it, like he truly did feel bad. I was somehow able to wiggle out from under him before he finished. I remember looking back at him with disgust and him saying how he didn’t get to finish, and me saying finish by yourself. I felt swollen and sore down there, I remember how it felt trying to walk. I went back to my room and next thing I know it’s the next day. I pulled myself together, had on another pretty dress, my hair in a fancy up do. I was walking down the hall where all the bedrooms were and saw my fiancée. I was so excited! I ran up to him and hugged him and pushed him into my room. I was trying to kiss him but he was very tense, emotionless, wouldn’t kiss me. Next thing I remember is the old man walked into my room, with me and my fiancée still there and he shut the door. The two men were talking and my fiancée pushed me onto the bed and ripped off my dress. Him and the man who raped me help me down as my fiancée separated my legs. He checked me and the man said something like I told you so. I guess the old man had told my fiancée he had me before I saw him, and my fiancée didn’t believe him at first. My fiancée wasn’t mad at the man at all, but at me. He looked disgusted, like it was my fault the man had raped me. I remember during this I didn’t speak, like at that time women didn’t speak out to men, even while being violated like this? My last memory was my fiancée forcing me to drink some clear liquid. Some kind of poison, he was trying to kill me. Him and the man held me down while doing this. I remember choking and trying to spit it up, it tasted horrible. It slowly and miserably killed me. My fiancée killed me, on the day of our wedding, because a man raped me.
Best answer:
Answer by The Muse Orpheus
Generally speaking, as I know nothing about you other than your dream story, I will disclose to you the meaning I get from your dream. I believe the entire premise of the dream was your virginity or the purity that you feel you have which was taken from you. Not only was your virginity or purity taken from you, but it was approved by those who you thought would disapprove. In your waking life I believe this is symbolic of an intrusive new idea, mode of thinking, thought, person, or something, outside of the dream, that has irrupted your previous mode of being. Have you recently had a change in ethics? Religion? Philosophy? Dreams represent what takes place in your waking life by getting a point across via symbols and imagery in which you should be able to relate to your life. I personally I think the entire dream is symbolic of an intrusive new idea. . . I believe once you examine the dream in this light, instead of a literal one, you will be able to understand it more clearly.
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