What to do in moments of sadness-depression, such as this one?
Question by Videomaniac: What to do in moments of sadness-depression, such as this one?
Today has been a terrible day for me. I graduated from high school last week so I am looking for a college/university.
There’s a college I’d love to go, but it is in another country and unfortunately it is too expensive for me. I didn’t really care, because I’d love to stay in my country and because I have a girlfriend here and I want to stay with her no matter what. I may be too young to be thinking about marriage, but it’s been a long relationship that we have both enjoyed throughout these last years.
I studied business and administration on high school. I don’t like it, but my high school doesn’t offer computer science on its program. I have the highest grades on my class. My true passions are computers and videogames. I wish I could do that for a living, but if I had to sacrifice my career for my girlfriend I would.
The problem is… it seems my country is falling into a crysis, and many people fear. My girlfriend is planning on going abroad, to live with some relatives on another country. She just gave me those news, 10 minutes ago. My hearts is broken, and I only have some months left before she leaves.
When I told my girlfriend I wanted to study abroad and follow my dream (the college I’d love to go is a videogames-making oriented one) she kind of freaked out, because she didn’t want me to go. Right now I am in that position, but I love her too much for retaining her. She deserves to have a secured future, and this country is full of uncertainty. It crushes my inside, but I must let her go.
I went to visit some colleges in my country to learn more about the programs. There is one that caught my attention, as it teaches 2d and 3d modeling and animation, videogame-making, movie-making, among other stuff I’m interested on. However, my country is not into that kind of things. In my country there is one successful movie ever decade, and we don’t have videogame makers. In fact, my country is full of piracy and videogame makers wouldn’t make profits in here. If I want to follow my dream, I have to leave the country.
I am in the middle of a huge dilema.
I could follow my girlfriend abroad, but I’d leave behind my dream career and my country, plus her parents don’t like me. In fact, her parents don’t even know me, but they’d hate the idea that their daughter is dating a person like me (they are asian and they wouldn’t like their daughter to date people who are not asian, and I am south american). If I follow my girl I lose my other 2 important goals in life (career and staing in my country) and I could also lose her due to her parents’ beliefs.
I could follow my dream career, but I don’t have enough money to assist to that college, and I couldn’t possibly chase my dream in my country. There’s just no demand for it in here, and piracy would finish my business. If I go abroad, I’d leave behind my girlfriend and my country, and I’m not sure if I’ll be able to achieve my goal after all (who knows what could happen if I go to a foreign country by my own).
If I stay in my country, I’d leave behind my dream career and my girlfriend, the woman of my dreams. Also, I’d run the risk of failing in here, as my country could be falling into a crysis and who knows if I’ll get a good job and will be able to have a decent life.
It seems that, no matter what I choose, I lose 2 important aspects of my life, and I run the risk of losing the third one. If I just had time to clear my mind I wouldn’t be SO scared, but I have deadlines to meet. Colleges are starting classes in the next few days and I must decide if I will stay in my country to study and work or not. I am very sad because the news that my girlfriend gave me just put me in this dilema. I am sad and confused. What should I do? I am christian and trust that my God will have the answers for me, but I fear that my God’s plans are not the same as mine, and maybe I could be losing somethine/someone important. and that will cause me a lot of pain, even if it HAD to happen.
My dream career is pretty realistic. It is not like I just chose that college because it is a videogaming-oriented one and that’s it. I researched on them, talked to their students, noticed the success of that college and its students, I did it all and decided that was the best college for me if I wanted to follow my dream. in fact, after finishing my studies there I would continue to work for one of their partner companies afterwards (the college is owned by a videogames-making company itself).
I wanted to stay realistic, and that is why I studied business and administrations on high school, but I am not happy with it. I am the top student yet I don’t feel like I accomplished anything.
I skipped all partying in high school, all time I could spare so I could carefully plan my future. I spent day and night studying because I wanted to have a nice future. Now in a matter of seconds it all collapsed. *sigh*
Best answer:
Answer by Queen of Whatever
hot bath, hot milk, phone call to mom.
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