Q&A: God, I want to commit Suicide, help!?

Question by Gale Hubbard: God, I want to commit Suicide, help!?
Before judging me, please read my ENTIRE question.

I got hired to be a Youth Entertainment Host aboard Disney Cruise Lines. Their newest ship, the Disney Dream in fact. I was so excited. This was a chance of a lifetime. I waited over 7 months before they finally placed me on-board. I gave up my job at a museum of 4 years and also gave up my apartment and sold my furniture. I was ready to save up money, make connections and move to New York before the age of 30 (I’m 28 now).

The first week aboard was complete hell. They were still constructing the boat, so on top of learning my way around a half built monster of a ship, I was also thrown a huge script book and told I had to memorize all the programs in under a month. Mind you these are 20-30 different scripts, all with light and sound cues to remember and choreography. Yes I am a performer and YES Im used to memorizing lines, but not this many. Even Broadway actors don’t have this much to do at once. On top of the scripts, Disney wanted me to also perform vigorous cleaning chores that included setting and cleaning up my programs- going from Deck 1 to Deck 12 to get supplies, liquid nitrogren, Eggs, cans, linens, etc. It was just overwhelming. The directors I worked with all had egos and all were nasty and wanted different things that I was trying to give them. And I had unorganized managers. I had to share a cabin with a roommate who liked to have sex a lot, and I finally had to tell him to knock it off so he and his girlfriend could do it somewhere else.

Instead of giving up right away, I managed to last 5 weeks. Then I told my managers I wanted to resign. I just couldn’t take it anymore. On top of finally learning most of my programs and getting great feedback, they then told me I had ANOTHER binder of scripts coming my way. What the hell? This was just asking too much. I know its Disney and all, but really! Enough is enough.

I now am living back at my parents house. They were so nice to give me a room, let me join their cell phone plan and give me food on the table until I figure out what to do. Part of me feels guilty, but I did think about leaving for a good 5 weeks. I was not happy. But I still want to be in entertainment. Was I wrong to do this? I gave up everything to be at Disney, and then it wasn’t what I expected at all. I am even feeling suicidal. Please help.

Best answer:

Answer by Brandon
Don’t do it bro. Things will eventually work out for the best. God has a plan for you.

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