Q&A: Have a hit a wall in my life or have I stopped caring about moving forward?

Question by OrangeDudeMan: Have a hit a wall in my life or have I stopped caring about moving forward?
Ever since my 2nd semester of my freshmen year in college it seems like my love of life has diminished a lot. Getting over a first love, being accused of a crime in college I did not commit which caused me a lot of stress at school and watching my closest friends or what I thought were my friends forget about me. Since these events I took a lot of time off to recollect myself and move on but it never feels like I am me again. I am no longer the very outgoing person I used to be. I used to do practically anything for my friends but now I find that It seems like too much of a chore to even drive to their house. I have practically lost interest in making movies and animations which I used to do all the time. The majority of the friends that I did have I have cut off and I only deal with the ones I Truly consider friends (ones who I can depend on). I used to think that i was wounded from prior events and that with time i would heal and be better but it does not seem like that is the case. Many times I come up with things i want to do, ideas I want to create and implement only to have them fade away with each passing day. I am not depressed. I have friends, socialize, and have a great relationship with my family. I am also in school but at 20 years of age I feel like I am taking more steps backwards than forwards.
There are multiple times I feel different (strange) from others even though I can fit in with the crowd.
Many times I feel socially awkward and will do things such as say goodbye to everybody in a room one day, and the next leave without saying anything.
I feel like I am in a constant battle with myself, trying to be the person I was and trying to get out of this funk I am in. It feels as if their is a wall in front of me and every time I get get close to getting over it, I decide it would be easier to do something else.

I have my whole life ahead of me but I feel as if I am settling down already.

Whats worse is it seems that the majority of my closest relationships eventually also fade into the distance with the end result being no communication. If I don’t hear from someone in a matter of weeks they practically fade from my memory.

Hell I don’t even post, or communicate on facebook anymore but still find myself logging in at least twice a day.

I don’t know what to think anymore.
I have seen my side of the real world and have been severely disappointed.

Is this all part of growing up? Is it true what people say “Its all downhill from here”?.

There was a time not too long ago I was happy 24/7 and no one could bring me down. Things have changed a lot.

Best answer:

Answer by Jess
Nah buddy, listen to yourself. Dont listen to others. But by saying this you need a mentor.

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